Memories of a Fallen Comrade

Sitting by the window,
Gazing down the horizon,
Staring at the falling leaves,
I remember…

The smell of moist November rain,
 Looking over my shoulders,
Sniffing the uncertain air,
Tensed and stiff.

Glancing towards my buddy,
Trying hard to avoid eye contact, 
Fearing he might sense,  
My inner most dread.

Fighting back awareness,
Trying hard to blend, 
Amongst the falling leaves,
 In the moist November rain.

Holding unto my breath,
Struggling not to breathe,
Afraid my breath might show,
In the moist November rain.

Squeezing my eyes shut, 
Listening to moaning sounds,
 Holding back my tears,
Camouflaging self-visibility.

Feeling the hot air,
Inhaling crisp burnt smell,
Shower of warm crimson spray,
I feel the returning dread.

Lying next to me,
With a blank stare
 Amongst the falling leaves,
My buddy, my mate, my comrade.

In the cold November rain,
I remember…

Memories of a Fallen Comrade -  Caroline Fernandes © September 26, 2013​

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a serious mental health issue!!! Holistic Healing, such as Reiki, Meditation, chakra clearing/balancing can benefit those who suffer from this silent disorder. 
Links/References:
​http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/post-traumatic-stress-disorder/DS00246/DSECTION=symptoms